I've fucked up and I feel like shit.
This is failure.
It's not an all encompassing failure and it's one I know I'll recover from. In the Grand-Scheme-Of-Things this failure at this point in time isn't a pivotal moment in my life that'll send me into a downward spiral.
But still, this failure isn't... good. It's failure because there was a thing/things I should've done... and didn't.
"Empowering" youtube videos tell me that we should look at failure as opportunities for growth, to see it as a good thing, nothing to be afraid or ashamed of.
Which I can see. Failure shouldn't be something to be afraid of. Being wrong must be something we can face up to. It's uncomfortable but it's something we just have to sit with, when it arrives.
I'm trying self-compassion. I'm telling myself that I've fucked up, this is why, and here's how to be better next time. But also that's there next time, it's not the end of the world, and here's how to move on.
I'm sad and stressed and tired today.